What God is like
The same crap over and over again
Do you know that? No matter how beautiful and good or how painful a situation was, after a while everything is put into perspective in the mind and in the end there is only a hint of what it actually was like. I don't want to forget anything, so I write everything down.
I don't want to lose sight of the joyful or the painful moments, everything was part of my life. That doesn't mean that I keep wanting to bring it out and the situation takes hold of me. But I don't want to suppress anything either. No, the truth is I want to look back, especially the difficult situations, and see and understand how I can grow from them. And at the same time I want to increase the joyful moments and know how I can get there again. If it worked once, why not again?
Too often I repeated mistakes and had to realize that I had already been at the same point some time ago, in a similar situation and had then drawn the same conclusions. Too often not much has changed after that. A cycle that I want to notice early on and break out of.
And what does that have to do with what God is like?
What God is like is the foundation on which I want to build my life. When I forget what He is like, I start to move away from the truth. And then sooner or later something goes wrong. The certain knowledge of what God is like, how He was and always will be to me, is what keeps me on the path I want to take.
With a clear view of the truth, of what matters. I want my soul to never forget how God was to me. It doesn't change, that's what makes the foundation so stable. But I have a very bad memory and sooner or later I forget everything if I don't take preventive measures.
All right, what is God like now?
The God I know is near.
He is always there in me, around me, even if sometimes I don't hear him, don't see him, don't feel him. The fact that I don't recognize Him in some moments doesn't mean that He isn't present and always listening. Even if I see no progress, no change, no sign, that doesn't mean He isn't continually working to help me. This has been confirmed again and again. In the moments when I doubt this, I am not close to myself. There is access back to God. To reconnect with myself.
The God I know is faithful.
Especially in difficult moments, when everything is falling apart, when there is little hope, when I no longer knew what to do, He ultimately never disappointed me. I may have had to be a little patient, but waiting always brought more beautiful fruit than I could have hoped for. Don't forget this soul, the wait is worth it. Time is not a concept in God's world. A lot of things that come “instantly” go away just as “instantly”. But God remains, He is so faithful that He inspires me to be just as faithful to Him as I am in everything I do.
The God I know loves me.
With a crazy love! He loves me perfectly, to the maximum, without reason, without condition. I can never separate from his love. Just like a father loves his child, regardless of whether he messes up or does nothing with his life. God loves me even better than anyone could ever love me. Because He is love. He can't help but love. No matter what I do. Even if I turn away from Him. All He is is love. All he does is love. And hopes and waits that I can accept and receive his love. This is the real crux of why I am sometimes unaware of his love. I am not always able to receive them. What helps? To admit that to myself in these moments.
God is a perfect friend and gentleman.
He respects my freedom without compromise. He doesn't interfere unless asked. If I don't ask Him for help, He stays out because He wants me to decide and always remain free. Don't forget this soul, put your pride aside and ask Him for help.
He doesn't do anything I don't want him to do. However, I am often not fully aware of what I want. He knows me better than I know myself and would never do anything that would only harm me and cause me pointless suffering. Ultimately, His will is my deepest longing, which He wants to develop in me.
He is a friend, which means He longs for a personal, deep, intimate relationship with me. Every person is unique and so is every single relationship with God. If I don't have a relationship with Him, then He's missing something. Not really, He is God, He lacks nothing. But still, His greatest desire, all He really wants, is my heart. That I give it to him, of my own free will. If I were forced it would be worthless, it wouldn't be love.
God is good.
Well well well. Through and through. When I have thoughts that make me doubt it. When things happen that call that into question, then a lie is involved. Very easy. Ask yourself soul: Where is the lie? For the God I know is good.
He is always more
God is much more than all of this and I will never be able to fully understand and experience what He is like except in heaven.
And that's good.
He is infinite.
He is incomprehensible.
He is always different than you think.
There is always more.
He is always more.
Engelberg, Switzerland: God is great, and yet He makes Himself approachable for each and every one of us
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